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and i forgot her name, as the years went on (prod. kejzi)
neverckay.

prod. @lordkejzi mixed and mastered @demxntia 🌸🌸💔💔🌸🌸 art by tofuvi lyrics: centered hospitital beds set focus in that evaning emergancy so beautiful i could hardly beleive it don't need another reason i need to take a breather crushed light bulbs on the ground made me a believer i can feel the hallows clawing out from the inside photographs in a room that reaked of piss and cyanide a girl that used to smile at me died alone that very night but with her last breath told me that it would be alright singing i don't know why you're like this i wish that i could prove you wrong promise you'll turn your bitter thoughts into a happy song.. i remember how her voice trailed off as she lost her grasp with the confignes of a shell that once echoed of her laughs cataclysms under my skin i realized there's no turning back eighteen she was diagnosed left behind crumpled maps still intact with places she'd never go X'd out in cinder black packed along with neon lights to distract when she snapped couldn't adapt to the friends that seemed to lose her contact claiming that they just lost track of the time and in her mind faulted by design, but never inclined to tell them what it felt like said life was beautiful, and how i should start living mine with urgancy running down her spine died alone that night singing i don't know why you're like this i wish that i could prove you wrong promise you'll turn your bitter thoughts into a happy song.. 🌸🌸💔💔🌸🌸

alternative rock
838
why is my head so polluted (prod. MISERY)
neverckay.

prod. by @m-i-s-e-r-y mixed by @canislupusxcv ☻☻☻☻☻☻ art by ohimemineko lyrics: please don't look behind the mask i swear you wont like what you see got more scars that haven't been seen peel at my skin got me feeling unclean cold sweats as i awaken from the dream and the walls crash as i keep screaming sing sanctuary it was something i believed in startling conclusion you left me there bleeding poured it out empty but my heart was still beating vitals were normal flat-line it was reading emotional and emotionless i was fleeting pleading for happiness watched it receded watch pushed apart the last thing that i needed a warm vast world and to me it was deleted name and body nothing more than just a season please don't smile don't give me another reason nothing to lose and it's so easy leaving translucent illusions left me to my room again illuminate fixtures city left in the ruins stars became scars and scars became bruises simple bursts of panic no clue what i was doing manic depressive problems so deeply rooted universe empty nothing mere but contusions thoughts of suicide subside not muted does this get better why is life so confusing the answer is there but it's so convoluted pollution yeah i know my head is so polluted searching for something that can't be refuted maybe i'll find it if i keep making music but afraid to play that hand the hand only loses i know that i can't keep making up excuses but most of me is tired and i don't wanna do this i'll play the puppet on a string if it still amuses ☻☻☻☻☻☻

alternative rock
5,373
i no longer feel content [with you around me] (prod. qawi kamri)
neverckay.

i'm trying to figure out where i'm going in life, walking the same roads staring up at the same sky but skin has become dissonant from the melodies i used to sing to the sky when reflected by the fascination of the moon's glow and warm breeze that tickled my skin.. nothing is permanent but everything is absolute... ... prod. by @qawikamri2 / @qawikamri mixed by @canislupusxcv written and sung by @imneverckay art by Lady Desidia lyrics: i'm wondering where the time went younger years wrongly spent maybe change could fix some dents cuz i no longer feel content.. yeah you're still my falling star but will that get you far though? November staring out the window the fuck should i be thankful for? please just try to ignore when i say i just don't care i lowered my defense before this time i don't aim to fight far so close your eyes and turn around while i burn this city down with you around me now.. with you around me.. i'm wondering where the time went younger years wrongly spent maybe change could fix some dents cuz i no longer feel content.. so close your eyes and turn around while i burn this city down with you around me now.. with you around me..

alternative rock
908
the endless existentialism between life ╊ death (prod. braydo)
neverckay.

on the surface this might sound like a breakup song, and in a sense this would be correct, but it's a breakup song about me growing up to not like the man i've become.. and essentially going on reluctantly breaking up with my childlike fantasies, the good part of me and of course the innocence that was stripped from me from a very young age.. and how i'm gonna die as the shamble of a person i've become prod. by @braydo mixed by @canislupusxcv sung and written by @imneverckay art by Miho Hirano lyrics: well we lost a wheel today but the train continues on course of course the light sounds of scraping woke me up from dreaming with such force when you came in.. knocking all those bottles to the floor i realized i couldn't take it anymore.. so don't wake up now just play dead for a while but we were young back then so i told myself we wouldn't be able to make it to the station... listen to the warnings from the conductor so please don't change the station yeah please don't change it because the memory is fading.. yeah please don't change it because we almost made it

alternative rock
405
well, have a happy fucking valentine's day w/ canis lupus (prod. longlost)
neverckay.

i can't fucking sleep,swallowing pills to alleviate the pain of this fucking stupid day.. i don't understand how you can say you care.. when you know how i am right now.. fuck i want to scream this song in your fucking face.. i want to see you fucking broken like me.. prod. by @longlostzim mixed by @canislupusxcv lyrics and vocals by @imneverckay & @canislupusxcv art by pheonix-studio lyrics: [neverckay.] why didn't you tell me?! i thought that you loved me! now i'm alone choking on the blood profusely.. now i fucking hate you why did you leave me this way?! you're fucking lying now.. get out my fucking face! saying things i didn't want to say bae like how i "LOVED" you oh how i tried to pretend.. when it's cold outside. what if i am not the type so i hide face.. cover away from the human race so i don't know if i should be all alone but i just want you to call back.. and please don't pick up your fucking phone.. [canis lupus] blood splatter on walls we were once closed in, like you ripped out my heart and gave it to him.. and i gave you everything now i'm screaming till i cringe eyes bloodshot and sore cut under my chin going through the seasons gave me something to believe in then you pushed me off the edge and into the deep end now i'm all alone in the dark with my demons left me broken inside now i am seething [neverckay.] when it's cold outside. what if i am not the type so i hide face.. cover away from the human race so i don't know if i should be all alone but i just want you to call back.. and please don't pick up your fucking phone.. [canis lupus] i fucking hate you.. now i fucking hate you.. i'll learn to forget you.. i'll learn to forget you

alternative rock
9,473
she's on his mind day and night /modern heartbreak (prod. chrisform)
neverckay.

i wish things didn't have to end like this, you were the only thing that made me feel like someone actually gave a shit about me.. i'll always miss you : / i made this song a while back..hope you enjoy it.. new songs coming soon.. prod. @chrisform mixed by @canislupusxcv vocals and lyrics by @imneverckay art by Adara-Sanchez-Anguiano lyrics: i always paint a picture where you're at fault i just can't handle how i got caught in a hail storm emotional distraught a happy life that i swore i bought i built up the house with playing cards and i covered my eyes as it fell apart because i never had the heart to leave you alone at the very start i know that my head is such a wreck and i know you're only doing what is best for you.. she's on his mind day and night in someone elses bed and he wants to cry she don't look at him in the same light she don't look at him in the same.. close your eyes and count to ten maybe we'll be able to start over again she's on his mind day and night a bunch of messages on read but no reply she don't look at him in the same light she don't look at him in the same.. look at all these panoramic pictures that would never ever fit her it was about all the ups and downs she only focused on what surrounds what would they think if they found out that everything about her was fake right now her mom said she tips the bottle to drown out all her demons that leave her in doubt.. what happened to he'll treat you so much better i told you that he wouldn't weather the weather girl i bet you feel as though you were cleaver but what are you gonna do when he decides to sever well girl i hope you remember yeah i really hope that you remember..

alternative rock
4,168
don't pretend you still care, when i know you don't (prod. tothegood)
neverckay.

it's hard to pretend i'm alright when i haven't the slightest idea of what that even means.. and seeing others carry on in such a way i'm left feeling more that i'm a outcast to this world.. i can't even fake a smile.. when i realize this is who i'll always be art by cynthia tedy prod. @tothegood mixed @canislupusxcv written and sung @imneverckay lyrics: girl can't you see that i'm dying again every time i know i die in your head swear to god, when you dive in his bed you forget every word that i've said i love you serenades in regret yeah the past still leaves me feeling haunted well babe you got all you wanted want me to leave now okay yeah, you've got it.. well nobody told me that this would be easy but everyone told me that you'd someday leave me i was young and dumb so i never believed it in that moment you left i swear i stopped breathing now i read into your every subtle motion waiting for that single status till then i'll keep scrolling said that you don't love him, leaving the door wide open your words hug me like a rope and i keep fucking choking you said it was just a break so am i dumb for hoping said you loved me so many times i'm surprised that i'm still going cracks under my skin glued together surprised it's even holding want me to fucking leave now? well yeah, that's duly noted

alternative rock
639
please just promise you won't forget what this meant (prod. tothegood)
neverckay.

in that moment it was the words caught in his throat. He know she was happy for once, he didn't provide it but at the same time he realized this was how it was supposed to be. The night fell stale as he waited for the dust to settle. but it was worth it to see her smile like she had a long time ago.. art by cynthia tedy prod. @tothegood mixed @canislupusxcv written and sung @imneverckay lyrics: watching the hands of the clocks why can't we just make it all stop the feeling of falling off the mountain but at least we can say we were on top got me screaming at her again lately that's become our new addiction please just tell me when it will end i can't stand anymore of this affliction you made this bed now lay in it.. i'm so damn tired of all your bullshit you got scars along your wrists so don't call me hopeless you made this bed now lay in it.. i'm so damn tired of all your bullshit i won't be a witness .. watching the hands of the clocks why can't we just make it all stop the feeling of falling off the mountain but at least we can say we were on top got me screaming at her again lately that's become our new addiction please just tell me when it will end i can't stand anymore of this affliction --------------------------------------------------------

alternative rock
932
you're my everything (prod. trxpicvl)
neverckay.

these late night texts got me wanting to crash my car, but that's all been done before.. prod. by @trxpicvl mixed by @canislupusxcv vocals & lyrics by @imneverckay Lyrics: driving ninety down the highway are you going my way? are you going my way? i just gotta keep straight i know that shit, meditate i don't mean to integrate feeling like i'll integrate it's way too late.. when i fall apart.. you're still my summer.. oh what a bummer.. i wish you'd remember those days in November you won't remember me remember me, remember me, please baby let this be just let this be just let this be you're still my misery my misery, my misery, baby please let this be please let this be just let this be.. driving ninety down the highway are you going my way? are you going my way? i just gotta keep straight i know that shit, meditate i don't mean to instigate feeling like i'll instigate i've been feeling way too late..

alternative rock
5,592
ctrl alt delete (prod. zippy)
neverckay.

this is a song about being an outcast in the confines of society that i know i'll never fit into and that just leaves me empty and depressed.. thank you for listening much luv prod. by zippy mixed by @canislupusxcv vocals & lyrics by @imneverckay Lyrics: always alone on these fridays nights never was one to live in the lights everyone told me that i'd be alright but everyday i'd still want to die.. please tell me where all that time went and tell me if it was well spent send my body to space at the time of death i don't want to be on earth with my regrets.. was this what i always looked like can't rocognize my face in the low light is it harder dying here than to be alive a loss for words and i don't really want to fight more unfinished stories that i need to rewrite slowly etching into my skin like another knife turn away from the crowd because it's too bright choking back on my words this doesn't sit right used to be a cannibal i lost my appitite i still got wishes that i need to ignight i gotta prove them wrong i won't lose my sight it's amazing when imagination takes flight i can build broken walls to such great heights maybe cut everyone off to end all strife but if i did would i then start to like my life well if i did would i then start to like my life? always alone on these fridays nights never was one to live in the lights everyone told me that i'd be alright but everyday i'd still want to die.. please tell me where all that time went and tell me if it was well spent send my body to space at the time of death i don't want to be on earth with my regrets..

alternative rock
4,143
turn away (prod. tec ) ft. canis lupus
neverckay.

a constant drowning.. too fucked up.. thank you for believing in me.. a lot of shit has been weighing on me, demons starting to win.. every glance into the mirror makes me lose it more.. save me i'm drowning.. prod. by @bigl mixed. by @canislupusxcv lyrics. by @imneverckay and @canislupusxcv Lyrics: i wish i could turn away from the car crash the aftermath happy memories i can't get back someone please flip around the hourglass back before i started to even wear a mask i can see past those rose colored glasses never gonna be able to fit in with the masses so don't ask this, i'm a masochist, you're a catalyst a fire starter without matches make me master this you're no longer an activist for this accident plastic cups filled with amethyst that's my only wish i hope they raise their fists to this shit make a list for every day you weren't fucking missed at least a little bit i don't give a shit i don't care if i'm belligerent yeah you made me bitch.. i now tear and scratch girl you make me itch weren't you the one that said that i should come to grips yeah i came to grips with how a razor sometime slips every time i think of him up on your fucking lips gripping on your hips while sliding in his dick another slit and blood starts to fucking drip the vomit on my floor leaves me feeling really sick another night i want to quit would i even be fucking missed? my chest starts to cave in blood drips off my tongue i wish i could escape, but i can't even run heart is now ash and i have chard lungs i'm still waiting for the times for my life to be fun heartbreaks keep on coming my depression always summon close my eyes and imagine all the times we were fucking i want to leave you on the floor dead feeling nothing shards of glass in your neck grab my chalice to pour your blood in bitch i fucking hate you i don't want to hear you breathe i just want to leave you in the same state you left me crying in the dark all by my lonely said that you loved me opposite of what you showed me i don't know what to do i used to love you now it's not the same you are so plain drive me insane i hate you and what you say you caused me nothing but pain i see life a different way cut my wrist and fade away AND I WISH SOMETHING WOULD WORK OUT THIS IS NOT THE SAME NOW HOW CAN YO REROUTE HOW CAN YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME AND THEN JUST WALK AWAY HOW CAN YOU JUST WALK AWAY

alternative rock
3,517
stupid,vapid girl (prod. NiykEEla)
neverckay.

hope you guys enjoy this track put a lot of work into it and i'm so happy to release it, a little more pop-ish than usual much luv ٩◔‿◔۶ prod. by @niykeela mixed by @canislupusxcv vocals & lyrics by @imneverckay Lyrics: i just want to fuck you in my parked car i just want to leave you with a bunch of scars yeah, watch me tear your perfect life apart this bitter heart will leave you in the fucking dark i swear i'll hurt you before you'll hurt me this pain in my throat is from another galaxy not flexing anime, you can't fucking ride with me blow my brains out before you make my fantasy if we're speaking honestly these chicks don't know about honesty im finally i'm starting to really see i don't want a bitch if she don't want me gotten comfortable living in this misery i just want to fuck you in my parked car i just want to leave you with a bunch of scars yeah, watch me tear your perfect life apart this bitter heart will leave you in the fucking dark falling for me is just a car crash scene not one of those happy ending kinda movies don't follow too closely your gonna fucking lose me girl i swear to god i'm way to fucking choosy.. but i still want you on my home screen come out and watch the stars with me i just want to fuck you in my parked car i just want to leave you with a bunch of scars yeah, watch me tear your perfect life apart this bitter heart will leave you in the fucking dark

alternative rock
6,181
i can't luv u anymore ✖😢 ft. canis lupus (prod. CYRAX BEATS x OVRCZ)
neverckay.

finally a new song, huge thanks to everyone that believes in me i appreciate so much.. much luv ヽ(^◇^*)/ prod. by @cyraxbeats x ovrcz mixed by @canislupusxcv vocals & lyrics by @imneverckay & @canislupusxcv Lyrics: and you'll just take him to your bed while i always take you to my head and all these expensive fucking shots taste of the words i never should should have said i guess my body language mislead the times i ignored you, you just misread please just push me to the edge darling I'm not afraid of the dead sometimes i still wish you would comeback but now i know there's no reason to say crap remember how we said we would travel the maps whatever happened to the girl that once said that are you happy working a nine to five are you happy with where you're at in life i know you still think of that all the time choking back the bitter taste of suicide remember when i sat up alone and i cried hope you understand that feeling now every night i hope the thoughts tear you apart from the inside because i fucking died for you yeah i fucking died for you.. every time i sleep, you are who i see sad you aren't what you want to be you're not with me you're incomplete you have a man who's in college crazy how i have more knowledge of who you are i know you feel fallen your life's stalling you'll soon be calling i'll ignore every single message i hope i won't ever regret this why did you have to fucking exit you made my life such a fucking mess bitch remember all of the days, i promised you I'd stay no longer can with my mind state i can't love you in the same way and you'll just take him to your bed while i always take you to my head and all these expensive fucking shots taste of the words i never should should have said i guess my body language mislead the times i ignored you, you just misread please just push me to the edge darling I'm not afraid of the dead

alternative rock
7,470
☆ falling stars ☆ (prod. Vessels) - neverckay.
neverckay.

special thanks to anyone who believes in me because i honestly haven't believed in myself for quite a while :( prod. by @prodbyvessels mixed by @canislupusxcv vocals by @imneverckay Lyrics: yesterday i knew who you were tonight you’re just a falling star yesterday i knew who you were tonight you’re just another slut in his car got these scars on my back, now in my mind always in the background remember how i made you scream covering your mouth so you couldn’t make a sound your parents sitting in the next room failed to keep you quiet in your bedroom girl i just needed some fucking headroom didn’t think days like this would end so soon but we got older and i got colder your anxieties i couldn’t shoulder had to falter should have been your solider well now you have someone else to hold you now i just sit here and miss the old her, i just miss the old her, i really want to hold her yesterday i knew who you were tonight you’re just a falling star yesterday i knew who you were tonight you’re just another slut in his car yesterday i knew who you were tonight you’re just another falling star yesterday i knew who you were tonight you’re just another slut in his car and i got these scars, failed road maps that couldn’t take me that far and i got these scars, failed road maps that couldn’t take us that far...

alternative rock
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